Blue Green

by Annie Blackman

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These are songs I've written over the course of high school basically &Ihope you like them

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released June 2, 2016

Thank you to Jane Boehlert for this beautiful (!) cover art and also thank you to my dad in general

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Annie Blackman Montclair, New Jersey

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Track Name: Blue green
What if it's unfair cause i just learned how to wear myself this year
And understand my relevance as new and rare and real
Validate my stomach ache and tell me how you feel

Cause I’m blue you’re green and the best thing that I’ve ever seen
Handsome and then some but dumb
Cause you can't seem to see me

What if it made sense and my breaths weren't quite as dense and time was mine
I understand your relevance is rare and real and new
Treat me like I’m someone else cause I’ll be her for you

Cause I'm blue you’re green and the best thing that I've ever seen
Handsome and then some but dumb
Cause you can't seem to see me

What if you stay home and I give you time to know and august comes
And summer’s rendered both of us new and real and rare
Write me into everything and show me that you care

Cause I'm blue you’re green and the best thing that I’ve ever seen
Handsome and then some but dumb
Cause you can't seem to see me
Track Name: Easy
Tell me truly do I do it for you
My bike’s a little small to ride but I’d ride it anywhere to see you
Follow me around like you’ve got nowhere to be
Let every conversation finally feel easy
Track Name: Let me in
You’re so smart
I’m the youngest that I’ll ever been again
And what does it mean
To not know what the ends like and all of the sudden feel comfortable dancing and not really care if it looks right

Get me, let me in
Under the pretense of delicate limbs
Believe that i’m pretty beneath all this skin
Unwrap me and tap me and let me win

Find me out
Know that i’m funny in person too
Learn what we look like
Alone in your room with my hips halfway lit by your bedside lamp light and feel bad for the months of your oversight

Get me, let me in
Under the pretense of delicate limbs
Believe that i’m pretty beneath all this skin
Unwrap me and tap me and let me win

Make me doubt
The knack history has for repeating itself
Take me down
Cause I’m gathering dust on the top of the shelf
And my waist is too narrow to never be touched
And I’ve never felt this kind of nothing so much

Get me, let me in
Under the pretense of delicate limbs
Believe that i’m pretty beneath all this skin
Unwrap me and tap me and let me win

Get me, let me in
Under the pretense of delicate limbs
Believe that i’m pretty and witty and thin
Unwrap me and tap me and let me win
Track Name: Next door
Playing it cool
Cover my mouth when I’m laughing
One week till school starts
And you poetry isn’t about me

Burn all the rules
None of them seem to apply
Too young to be jaded
And too old to be batting my eyes

And I can’t imagine kissing you
Cause I don’t know what you’d look like right before
You’re nothing near what I’m used to
I’ll never be the girl next door

I had a dream
We were lying out next to a tennis court under a tree
You told me that you liked my hands
I’ve been told i have nice hands

And I can’t imagine kissing you
Cause I don’t know what you’d look like right before
You’re nothing near what I’m used to
I’ll never be the girl next door

And I won’t write it down
And I won’t say it outloud

And I can’t imagine kissing you
Cause I don’t know what you’d look like right before
You’re nothing near what I’m used to
I’ll never be the girl next door
Track Name: I bet
Talk to me for hours while you’re high
And then on Saturday night
Take the train to her place in the city where all that nice furniture must make her look so pretty

I’m not embarrassing when the lights are out
I’m not embarrassing when your mouth is on my mouth
I’m not embarrassing when we’re alone
And I bet you’d even do it if
No one else could know

Talk to me for hours on the phone
Cause you know I know things she doesn’t know
Act like she’s a piece of modern art
But staring at a painting doesn't make you smart

I’m not embarrassing when the lights are out
I’m not embarrassing when your mouth is on my mouth
I’m not embarrassing when we’re alone
And I bet you’d even do it if
No one else could know

She’s cold and you know she’s cold
Cosmopolitan and mean and unemotional
She’ll ignore you at a party if the room is full

Talk to me for hours in your car
I’ll keep my seat belt buckled I know we’re not going far
It's lonely on the inside I wish somebody had told
That turning seventeen won’t make you any older
Track Name: 15 16 17
Get into the front seat
Keep your eyes to the side
I’m always the first to say
Then you drive me to highland and get me really high and
Laugh with your eyes closed and swollen
More relaxed than before and to think that I swore that I’d stop it
But I couldn't stop shit
And now you're quiet in the back of my mind
And I’m still bothered by the time you give to any girl whose name and face and personality’s not mine
And if I said I wasn’t I’d be lying
Lying

15 and it’s hard to focus
Infect my mind at a moment’s notice
Know this, i knew it all along
It was the face and the braces you thought were wrong
And every bitch that you toss into a stanza lands a lyric
In one of my brand new songs
One of my brand new songs

Angry and jealous and everything is green
And did you mean it when you said you’d maybe do it unseen
Did you mean it when you said you’d maybe do it unspoken
Choke on empty hope and
Fuck no, I’m not above it
Apprehensive attention lovin
attention lovin

16 I’m settled into a newer din
It’s louder here
And painfully apparent it’s another not my year again
Has it ever been my year pretend I’m tough and unaffected by 10,000 misdirections

Invite me to a concert in the middle of the week
And speak to me in ways I'm pretty sure just friends don’t speak
I've been distracted ever since i had that dream
That dream that dream that dream

17 and I think I get and don’t regret our kind of love
Overwhelmingly consumingly okay with just this much
I’ll touch you in a million ways you won’t touch ____ (lol)
And its freeing and I don’t mind
And It’s freeing to know that we’re nothing and you’re mine
It’s freeing to know that we’re nothing and you’re mine
It’s freeing to know that we’re nothing
Track Name: Appealing to you
Did you hear it in my voice when i spoke and choked on the soundwaves coming out of my throat
She's prettier than me and that's fair and fine but it stings like a punch decked with heavy rings
I’m embarrassing
Cause i'm not a ghost i get it
But i have flesh unlike the rest so i'll sweat it
Thighs stuck to subway seats in city summer heat
city summer heat

Can you see it in my chest when i take a breath
Swallow hard in the front seat of your car
She's prettier than me and at least i know it so it doesn't feel as bad
So it doesn't feel as bad

Ill listen to the music that you like
And I'll learn to like it too
Why am i trying so hard to be appealing to you

Lying by omission every time you're in my kitchen
Standing by the stove thinking
You don't know me
And I don’t feel as tall as i usually do when i'm wearing these shoes

I think in hypotheticals i get though i'll let it go
But first i wanna know
Are you into me or am i dumber than i thought

Ill listen to the music that you like
And I'll learn to like it too
Why am i trying so hard to be appealing to you
Track Name: Xray eyes
I’ve never been so many men
And i hate that both of you are friends
Say my name so I know I’m not dead
Unwittingly fuck with my 50 pound head
And fit at the foot of my bed

What i wouldn't do
To look like how she does to you
Give me someone else's shoes to walk in until brand new
Till im a girl like her who gets to choose

Alone in my room i can feel my blood thick
All of my fuckups have led up to this
All of my friends are all wrong but it's alright
Cause there's something secure in your
Xray eyes

I feel it all the time
Living with a heavy mind
Am I really ever fine, no
Seek affirmations I can’t find, so
Possessive over something that’s not mine

Alone in my room i can feel my blood thick
All of my fuckups have led up to this
All of my friends are all wrong but it's alright
Cause there's something secure in your
Xray eyes

My mouth looks better shut
Notice how my hip bones jut
I’m good at making smart boys laugh but
I get it now that’s just one half of
Knowing what they want and being that

Alone in my room i can feel my blood thick
All of my fuckups have led up to this
All of my friends are all wrong but it's alright
Cause there's something secure in your
Xray eyes
Track Name: Famous, funny
One day i’m gonna be famous
I don't need a degree for you to know what my name is
I'll tell jokes about hoes that i know and i've known, and i know
That I'll make a lot of money while i'm at it
While i'm at it, might i add that
One day you're gonna regret that you didn’t hit it when you had the chance
Shout out to all the boys in the back

Shout out to all the boys in the back with the straps of their backpacks tightened up to their necks

One day I’m gonna be funny
Write award winning jokes on a couch made of money
Ill wake up next to much older men and get headaches from all of the stuff in my head

Shout out to all the books that I've read
Shout out to all the books that I've read and the fifty shades copy I keep under my bed